I just cant anymore, months of trying to keep my head above water and no matter what I do im still behind. I regret moving into a house with bf, he does not keep the yard clean and mowed as he promised & we never seem able to pay rent on time, im at home all the time because doing something to him means sitting on his ass for 6 hrs at the computer and id rather slice my wrists open than do that ANYDAY. I lost a subsidy when I moved in with someone else and dammit I just knew Id regret that, and I do. The house is too big, too expensive and Im too sick of shit. Literally. The stress I experience anymore is no longer worth it, on the verge of packing my bags and LEAVING with no forwarding address. Its that bad. I pay what I owe on time and his lifestyle of making pymt arrangements all the time is making me lose whatever dignity I had left. But who cares right? Not my family, they wouldnt bat an eye if I lived in a damn tent.
I’ll not live with anyone besides my kids again.
Cable tv and the net will be next on my chopping block, all either do is show you what you dont have, what you aint doing, and what you will never be able to afford. A complete downer from all veiwpoints.